After the Dr did the u/s the other day we talked about what our next step should be. He said we had done everything we were supposed to but he felt that all our m/c are because of poor egg quality. He didn't think there was anything we could do to have a successful pregnancy using my own eggs.
He has 2 studies that he is running right now where we could "adopt" one of the frosties that have been donated or we could use donor eggs from his other study. Either way it would be a reduced rate. Basically just paying for the meds but still 4000-6ooo to try it.
I am torn.
If my eggs are total crap then at least if I used donor eggs I would have a better chance of having a baby that is at least Dave's DNA.
On the other hand I have spent my entire life raising other people's kids. All I wanted was to have my OWN bleach blond, skinned knee, snarky, biological child...with the left ear sticking out just like everyone else in my family has. Apparently that WAS too much to ask for.
And what if we spend the money to try and it fails? I would feel like I was robbed.
I found that CoQ10 is supposed to help with egg quality. I think I will try that first to see if it really does help. I don't think I'm ready to give up but I also don't think I'm ready for the next step.
I feel like I am offically grasping for straws now.....
Click on the link below to have a laugh at me and my co-workers. It's definately helped take my mind off the crapfest.