Tuesday, December 21, 2010

This is getting frustrating....again...

So if you are male or someone I know IRL or both you will probably want to skip this post....don't say I didn't warn you.






So yesterday I got up from my desk at work and felt a big gush. Thank goodness I was wearing at least a liner and also grateful for having made the decision to wear black that morning!!!! I ended up having to go home change clothes and since I wasn't cramping or really having anymore bleeding I decided to just go back to work. The nighmare boss has actually been pretty decent to deal with lately...knock...on....wood!
Nothing has happened since. Nada....Zilch....sigh....
This is just so weird. I know that can't be the end of it but the waiting is really starting to get to me. Betcha anything I will be doubled over with cramps either tomorrow...yeah, that will be a great birthday present or on Christmas...an even better day to screw up. ~sigh~ Dave keeps asking how to know if he needs to take me to the emergency room. Poor guy. I forget sometimes that this is just as hard on him even though he doesn't act like it.
Anyone out there that has waited it out for a natural miscarriage and would like to share some helpful advice? I am all ears.

Just got a call from the Dr's office. He ran a blood test to see if the numbers were falling yet. They are still at 15,942 so it will probably be a while. Although when I told her about the bleeding yesterday she said that could be a good sign.

God...please let it skip my birthday...Christmas...and New Year's Eve....just make it some random day that I can block from my memory.

4 comments:

loveandchaosreign said...

I knew I couldn't wait for things to happen so I scheduled a D&C. I think you are incredibly brave. Much love and light for you as you go throught this.

merium said...

2 or 3 weeks was the longest I ever went~nothing happened and I eventually had a D&C. I'm sorry you're going thru this. Sending much love and many hugs to you.

justine said...

This just sucks. I waited with mine, but I wouldn't wait more than two weeks. Your body needs to heal, and I can't even imagine the emotional havoc this is wreaking for you. Hoping that this happens on a random, "forgettable" (though it is never *really* forgetttable) day for you ... and sending my thoughts and my love there to you. Try to be gentle with yourself right now.

Another Dreamer said...

(*hugs*) My second one the betas were only a little over 5,000 and it started with a gush to let me know if was starting, although we didn't know it yet. Three weeks later if was confirmed, and I finally couln't wait any longer and asked for meds to hurry it along (I regret that now, because the experience was awful). Hang in there. I hope it happens soon, and not on a significant day.