Wednesday, July 25, 2012

Getting back on track....

Well...I started back at the gym this week but only managed one day before my foot/ankle started killing me. I had the chiro look at it yesterday and he was able to straighten me out...literally. I had a couple of muscles that were bound up (muscle spasm) and a bone on the top of my foot was out of whack. So I am taking it easy for a day or two since it hurts still and then I'm am back on track. I upgraded my gym membership to include classes as well as the equipment room and I am looking forward to doing some yoga, pilates and hoop (I am assuming hula hoop?) Work is going great. I am still working with a wedding photographer as his assistant. We did an open house/wedding show over the weekend (probably when I messed up my foot) and booked 3 weddings at the show, 3 more since the show (as of Tuesday) and there are a few more strong leads. YAY! OH AND...I am the main photographer on one of them. Double YAY! I may not be making a ton of money by being an assistant instead of running out there and booking my own jobs but I really feel that there is so much I still need to learn about the business side of things. So for now I am learning, listening, practicing and making connections. Can't bring myself to step on the scales again but I am trying to make conscience choices about what to eat and when I am eating. I sure wish my husband was a little more supportive. The minute I start trying to eat healthier he brings home, ice cream, little pies that you bake in the microwave and peach cobbler. I have a bite or two but then let him finish it. I would like to feel better about myself and wear some cute clothes, possibly even a swimsuit when we go to Florida in early October.

Monday, June 25, 2012

OH.....HELL NO!!!

I take full responsibility for falling totally off the wagon this past year. I don't think I had realized how down I had been between the nightmare job, the surly teenager, the infertility, no real friends close by to spill my guts to...~sigh~ It has been a foul year. Just thinking about it makes me want to crawl back in bed with the dog and take another long nap. I stepped on the scales this morning hoping to see another drop in numbers. (last month I lost 10 lbs) NOPE. Gained back everything that I lost last month PLUS I gained 4 more pounds. I just don't know how to get control of this. Every time I am making progress I backtrack. So starting today, I am going to use this as my platform for holding myself accountable. If I slip up I have to 'fess up. I have been going to the gym sporadically for the last month or so but when I wake up hurting from head to toe it's hard to make myself go. That has to stop too. I HAVE to go every day during the week to make any real progress. Saturday and Sunday is usually pretty busy so those will be my days to find an alternative activity. Which will probably be window shopping at the mall or working on a home improvement project. Oh man....I don't know if I have the guts to post what my weight has skyrocketed to. DEEP BREATH.......256.5 GAAHHHHHHHHH!!!!!! SHOOT ME NOW!!!! I have gained 50 lbs in 3 years WTF!!!!!!! OK, is what it is. Starting from this minute I will be holding myself accountable for every bite I take and document every workout. South Beach Diet begins in 3....2....1...!!!!!!