Tuesday, May 25, 2010

Seriously...~sigh~

I am so tired of my lovely Dr having to tell me "I'm so sorry". FUCK.
Another failed pregnancy....strike FOUR. This time it's a blighted ovum.
No more chances for just taking another round of Clomid, our next step is a fertility specialist. Dr. W doesn't want to waste more of our time if there is a chance of the specialist helping.

Which means we are totally screwed. My insurance company won't even pay for the Clomid they sure as hell aren't going to pay for anything more invasive.

Dave is going to check into his insurance. I wouldn't be able to switch until Dec but that is only 7 months away. It' will probably take a month for me to m/c and then another for my body to kick back into a routine. Yeah, I'm kinda ramblin right now. It's how I process crap. Sorry.

I'll let my brain calm down and then we'll make an appointment to meet with him. I've already decided that IVF isn't for us it's just too cost prohibitive. I don't know what to think or feel anymore.

Maybe, just maybe, I'll win the lottery between now and then. I might as well hope for "World Peace" while I'm at it.

9 comments:

merium said...

I am so, so sorry. I know there are no words~sending a huge hug to you...

Rebecca said...

I'm so sorry. I wish there are words I could offer that would make you feel better, but I know there aren't, so I'll just offer virtual (((hugs))) instead.

Rachel said...

I'm so sorry. Rest and take care of yourself. Sending big hugs...

P.S. Maybe you won't need IVF or anything near that invasive, just testing to find out why you're miscarrying because clearly you can get pregnant.

expatbarrenness said...

So very sorry for your bad news. Be as good to yourself as you can -
will be thinking of you

cgd said...

I am so very sorry for your loss, it is so heartbreaking after the all the losses that you have already experienced. I know that RE's and IVF is very frightening and costly. Try to take it one step at a time (so much easier said than done). Holding you in my thoughts.
~LFCA~

Kelly said...

I'm so sorry for what you're going through. I just had my fourth loss (in a row) and know how painful it is. Have you had testing done at all? I'm hoping you find a solution and won't need anything invasive (and that insurance doesn't cover.)

(((HUGS)))

Molly said...

im so sorry... we did 4 rounds of clomid, then one ivf that was cancelled and then second one (that one worked!) we had to pay everything out of pockets cause the insurance paid nothing. absolutely nothing. we had no other choice if we wanted to have a baby (7 years of IF) we will be paying it off for a very, very long time ! oh well ...

Another Dreamer said...
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Another Dreamer said...

I am so sorry for your loss. One loss is hard, but repeat losses just fucking suck. So sorry.