Monday, February 1, 2010

It's February? Seriously?

Nothing new to tell on the TTC front. I'm not even sure things are working like they are supposed to after the chemical pregnancy. I stocked up on op tests at Dollar Tree yesterday. I can go crazy and test for the next couple of weeks just to see if things are working again. If they aren't I might try to talk to the doctor again about trying metformin. It can't hurt to try.

Yesterday was a good day with the SS. For the first time since his mother's death he actually talked about her. He wanted to make some haystacks like she used to make for Christmas, so I made a quick run to the store. He and I (mostly he) made a big ol batch of them and then made a batch of peanut butter cups. I took some pictures of him cooking and his dad took a couple of pictures of the SS and I working in the kitchen. I'm glad he's finally talking about her. Dave and I talk about her to him but this is the first time he has brought her up on his own. Now if I could just get him to use more soap when he showers.....

I've been pretty bummed the last few weeks. I have been taking a Rx for depression/anxiety since the first loss. When I had it refilled in January Tar.get had switched brands. Usually that isn't a big deal but for some reason this batch just isn't working well for me. I haven't wanted to do anything but sit with the remote and channel surf. I thought it was just the stress at work that was making me feel that way. Plus I have been having lots of chest pains. They start about 7:45 am and last until 5:30ish which means it's stress and not a heart attack. But then I realized that it had only started getting bad when I started taking these new pills. I stopped taking them immediately and over the last few days the chest pains have gotten better. They aren't gone but they aren't stopping me in my tracks anymore. I couldn't find a pharmacy that had the old brand so I'm going to try the another brand. Fingers crossed they will be ok. I'll give them a couple of weeks and if the pains don't go away I'll go back to the doctor.


merium said...

I've been thinking about you and wondering how you are...hang in there~crossing my fingers that your dream will come true this year.

Sharpiegirl said...

Thank you Merium. I don't know what I would do without you.